Working through it with music

Sometimes I just haven't the words. And it's easier to find them through music rather than pick myself clean to say those painful or heartbreaking words. For me, music has always been an intricate means for me to express myself, despite the lyrics not being my own. Each time I come across something that moves me musically, I realize that the song takes on a different meaning to me than what was intended by the artist. But it works for me. And sometimes in life, to get by, you just have to do what works. I decided than until I am able to voice my pain or grief, I will attempt to share with you some of the songs that either express the feelings I am feeling or that mean sometime to me in a way different than the song was intended. And I will start with the one that follows.

By
Chris Daughtry, What About Now..

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?


Based on the video, the song is about the destitute of earth, about changing the course of poverty, of suffering, about making the choice to make a difference. The song is about change and taking a stand against the wrongs in the world. A beautiful song without doubt. For mean it strikes a chord in my heart that has absolutely nothing to do with the actual meaning of the song. It brings me to a place of memory, of what could have been. Naturally it brings with it pain of loss and sadness, but reflection in turn eventually, healing. Some won't understand that but it works for me. Maybe I am not alone in the musical therapy aspect, but if you haven't tried it. Listen to some of the songs you are drawn to, maybe they are healing or soothing and you didn't know it. There is a link on the right side of the page if you'd like to see the video or hear the song.